I feel down and feel that I am depressed but am afraid to see a doctor, I do not have any desire to live and don’t have any motivation?

I am sorry to hear that. You are right, you are depressed. However, you must know that depression is a treatable disease. 

It is vital that you seek help from a doctor as soon as possible because the symptoms will only get worse. Treatment for depression is a combination of drugs and psychotherapy. 

Your symptoms will resolve rather quickly and you will feel better. Take a chance and see your doctor today. Do not give up. Wish you all the best.